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wow I finally managed to properly start uploading videos on YouTube (my channel's name is Muzettte, just like my name here on blogger)! I am so happy to have figured out how to edit them! Of course they are not as proffessional and nice as others' but I don't really care about them being proffessional, I only want them to be simple and easy to watch and to actually be USEFUL! That would make me the happiest girl, to know that I can help someone doing one of the things that I LOVE MOST! That is, playing with makeup! I hope people will get to watch my videos, for now I have no idea how to make my channel more visible, I am sure there are ways but... I don't know of any. I will just hope the tags will be searched often! And that people will like my channel and subscribe, cuz I have soooo many ideas for future videos! I have 3 more videos in my computer than I can't wait to upload!
Not posting about anything else today, just wanted to tell that I am happy that my YT channel starts looking good! Meaning... it starts to contain...things! lol
Here's a look of the day pic, as well.
Kisses and have a fab day!
Roxana

Shirt: Zara (TRF Collection)

Belt: Zara

Leggings: Pimkie

Shoulder bag: C&A

Shoes: C&A

Sunnies: Bijou Brigitte

Reasons

Well... I wonder, why none of my friends/family, would like some beauty advice? Not from me, but from anyone??? Except for my hubby, but he is a guy so I can't really teach him about make up and all the good stuff! LOL. Poor guy, has to sit and listen anyways tho, cuz I keep talking about that. I bet he knows more than most of the girls that I know, at this point! I always liked using makeup and beauty products, but I never had anyone to tech me how to use them right, except for my mom, that, now I realise, she never actually knew too good either. But at least she loved to use them and she gave me some really good advices and words of wisdom in those regards. I remember that she told me that *there is nothing better and more relaxing than taking care of yourself*. And that is the truth! I read tons of women's magazines, and I cannot deny, they gave me good advice but only parts of advices... I mean, their articles would explain things but only fast, like for example, to get a smokey eye look, you have to put that color of shadow here and the other one there but... never were telling that instead of the little sponge that comes with the eyeshadow box, you have to use a makeup brush, and blend the colors into each other better. So I had no idea and I was getting frustrated at about 18 years old, trying to put colors on my lids but always ending up with some blocks of colors that wouldnt match right! So I have been wearing only eyeliner and mascara for years, convinced being that I am unable to work with colored makeup and maybe that my eyes were not made for that!! I thought it just wouldnt fit me!! My eye shape is a bit weird, my eyes are kind of hooded so the eyeliner did not look all that good either, when applied like I had seen on my mother... meaning in a winged line. So I started to hate my eyes!

My friends were not too interested in makeup either, they were mostly interested in clothes, which is okay but heck, as long as your face looks like hell... clothes won't make you look any better! Unless, of course, you wear them on your face!

So when I discovered the beauty Gurus on YouTube I was fascinated! Was like I just had been gifted with a gang of girlfriends, all fun and interesting and WILLING to teach and to learn! The first videos I discovered were the ones of Kandee Johnson, I remember I was obsessed with her videos and her blog and I couldn’t believe how many little things I could learn and in a matter of days I was looking completely changed, my hubby was amazed! He was like *wow you look so hot with your eyes made up like that!!!!* I went and bought new makeup and I started watching more gurus and recreating the makeups they were doing, every day a different style, step by step, pausing the videos and trying to do what they did. After a while,I was already aware of what looked best on me, for my eyes shape and face shape, color and all. And the best thing is that the gurus were girls just like me, explaining everything like they would to a friend, not like big makeup artists that do tell some things but prefer to keep the most important tips hidden, so noone else can still their *business*. It really was like having new friends!!

I realised that I LOVED this, I loved makeup and loved everything beauty and I was starting to get good at it! I was watching videos and searching the Internet for a few hours every day (when I had time), reading more magazines, recreating makeup loks from the magazines... Was like a revelation, like I had found my meaning in life! :))

So when I went to my home country this summer, I packed up a ton of makeup and brushes and all that good stuff, happy that I will get to teach my mom, my mom in law, my sister in law and everyone else that would wanna learn, I would make them up and make them look so beautiful, I was hoping to make them feel like I felt when I discovered all this! But uh-oh…. It wasn’t all like I planned. They kind of acted like it wouldn’t be such a big deal for them, and that they already KNEW all the things I was so enthusiasticaly telling them (yeaaaah RIGHT!! If they knew, they would look better!!) so they kind of rained on my parade! LOL! That sucked because I am really happy when I can help people with anything, but I am happy if I see that my help was received with pleasure and that it really made a change for them, not just accepted out of … obbligation, and halfhearted. My point is, I dunno about others, but I am surrounded by people that do not wanna *lower* themselves to the point where they would admit that they need help, they would rather pretend they know it all and go on like they always did, rather than accepting some help. That is so bad, made me feel sad. So that’s how I got the idea of starting this blog, the YouTube channel (Muzettte) AND a Formspring and Twitter account, so I can talk with people that are LOOKING for help. I never pretend that I would be the best at anything but I have learned so much lately, I am continuously learning about beauty, fashion, skincare (that one I had to learn even from years ago, having to deal with acne for so many years). Other than that, I know many other things that could help some people, for example, I guess I could give good relationship advice!

Feels so good to be able to help and to express your ideas and feelings and to actually be able to talk to people that have the same likes and hobbies. I don’t have this pleasure in my real life, so the Internet has proven to be so helpful in these regards, for me!

I can’t wait to figure out how to edit the damn YT videos to make them shorter than 10 mins tho! LOL I know how to cut them, is just too hard to make them shorter, I dunno what to take out!!

Okay, this post was too long already, so I will add another Outfit of the Day pic and hit the sack.
Kisses everyone!
Muzettte

Tunic: H&M

Jeggings: C&A

Clogs: Tamaris

Shoulder bag: no-name craftstore

Sunnies: Fendi

First post! Thinking about age...

So this is my first blog post! Hmm What should I talk about? I am not very good at finding topics but once I found one, I can talk about it forever... well not forever but untill everyone, including myself, falls asleep.


I guess I shall talk about age this time. I am 31. I feel 17. What the heck? Is this normal? Truth is, after I hit 30, I started feeling alot better about myself, about the way I look and about who I am! I was a mess all my life before, lack of self confidence and at times even of self esteem, I guess! Whatta shame! Even now, I have times when I feel that I don't really deserve being loved just because I exist, but I must do THINGS to earn that love and respect. Of course, everyone should do good things to earn the respect of people, but at times is good to just lay back and relax and know that you are loved just for being yourself.

I remember my mom telling me that before 30, you have times when you feel old, when you hate yourself and your looks... but after 30, that's when a woman starts feeling really young. I am not sure that I feel younger than I used to, but I definitely feel okay. I hate that I can see some fine lines on my face already, but at the same time, I have to fight with my stupid cystic acne, that I could never really get rid of, except for the time I've been taking bc pills. I stopped that and the acne came back. Darn it! Anyways, I try using that to my advantage. Who in the world would think that a chick with pimples on her face could be actually 31 years old? Hee hee. My hubby says I shouldn't mind the pimples as they make me look like a teenager. Well... can't say I wanna look like a teenager WITH acne but looking like a teenager is a good thing! lol

This summer I read a book, by Sophie Kinsella, called *the Ghost Girl* or something like that, and there was this character that was the ghost of a 90-something years old woman, that was saying that she all her life felt like a 23 years old girl, and she was also saying that noone is really changing over the years, every person is ON THE INSIDE as they were when they actually started to realise who they were .. that happens for some earlier, for some later. For me I guess it happened when I was 25 or so. Untill then I was living in dreamland, walking on clouds and who knows what I was eating as well... probably not even looking at what I was putting in my mouth, that would explain the colon issues Im having now...

So I guess we shouldnt look at older people like... man, they are old, they can't understand us ... or to feel them so far from us because of the age.. because after all, every person is the person they used to be when they looked younger too. I remember that when I was about 14... I was thinking that when I will be 21 (in 2000) I would be sooooo mature, probably married AND with babies! LOL. How wrong I was. When I was 21 I was a child, still. Even if I would have been married AND with babies, I would have still been a child. As I said, it depends, for everyone, when they become mature, but my point is that you don't become ALL that different, with the age. Your inner self only gets wiser, eventually. But not older. Only the body gets older, that's why you should take great care of it, so you don't feel depressed feeling young and looking old! :)

That was my rambling for today... as first posting in this blog. I will add an Outfit of the day pic, and I will buzz off :)

Kiss kiss,

Roxana

dress: New Yorker (I think!)

belt: Zara

Shoes: Deichmann

Bag: C&A

Sunnies and necklace: Bijou Brigitte

PS: I will upload some makeup videos on YouTube, I hope I can do something interesting, I really wanna have a useful channel there, for whoever wants to watch!