I guess I shall talk about age this time. I am 31. I feel 17. What the heck? Is this normal? Truth is, after I hit 30, I started feeling alot better about myself, about the way I look and about who I am! I was a mess all my life before, lack of self confidence and at times even of self esteem, I guess! Whatta shame! Even now, I have times when I feel that I don't really deserve being loved just because I exist, but I must do THINGS to earn that love and respect. Of course, everyone should do good things to earn the respect of people, but at times is good to just lay back and relax and know that you are loved just for being yourself.
I remember my mom telling me that before 30, you have times when you feel old, when you hate yourself and your looks... but after 30, that's when a woman starts feeling really young. I am not sure that I feel younger than I used to, but I definitely feel okay. I hate that I can see some fine lines on my face already, but at the same time, I have to fight with my stupid cystic acne, that I could never really get rid of, except for the time I've been taking bc pills. I stopped that and the acne came back. Darn it! Anyways, I try using that to my advantage. Who in the world would think that a chick with pimples on her face could be actually 31 years old? Hee hee. My hubby says I shouldn't mind the pimples as they make me look like a teenager. Well... can't say I wanna look like a teenager WITH acne but looking like a teenager is a good thing! lol
This summer I read a book, by Sophie Kinsella, called *the Ghost Girl* or something like that, and there was this character that was the ghost of a 90-something years old woman, that was saying that she all her life felt like a 23 years old girl, and she was also saying that noone is really changing over the years, every person is ON THE INSIDE as they were when they actually started to realise who they were .. that happens for some earlier, for some later. For me I guess it happened when I was 25 or so. Untill then I was living in dreamland, walking on clouds and who knows what I was eating as well... probably not even looking at what I was putting in my mouth, that would explain the colon issues Im having now...
So I guess we shouldnt look at older people like... man, they are old, they can't understand us ... or to feel them so far from us because of the age.. because after all, every person is the person they used to be when they looked younger too. I remember that when I was about 14... I was thinking that when I will be 21 (in 2000) I would be sooooo mature, probably married AND with babies! LOL. How wrong I was. When I was 21 I was a child, still. Even if I would have been married AND with babies, I would have still been a child. As I said, it depends, for everyone, when they become mature, but my point is that you don't become ALL that different, with the age. Your inner self only gets wiser, eventually. But not older. Only the body gets older, that's why you should take great care of it, so you don't feel depressed feeling young and looking old! :)
That was my rambling for today... as first posting in this blog. I will add an Outfit of the day pic, and I will buzz off :)
Kiss kiss,
Roxana
dress: New Yorker (I think!)
belt: Zara
Shoes: Deichmann
Bag: C&A
Sunnies and necklace: Bijou Brigitte
PS: I will upload some makeup videos on YouTube, I hope I can do something interesting, I really wanna have a useful channel there, for whoever wants to watch!
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